About

José Gude, MD, MBI

Physician, novelist, musician, and software developer based in Boise, Idaho. Hospitalist at the Boise VAMC and telehospitalist with Providence. Builder of clinical tools. Writer of fiction about consciousness, frequency, family, dogs, love, and freedom.

A short introduction from the author — the trilogy in his own words.

I trained in internal medicine and have spent the last thirty years as a hospitalist — the kind of physician who carries the weight of a patient's whole admission from the moment they arrive to the moment the system is willing to let them leave. It is the most demanding work I have ever done. It is also, quietly, the most contemplative.

The books came out of that contemplation. Thirty years of standing at bedsides and watching patients improve by amounts no medication could fully explain. Thirty years of suspecting that the body was an instrument, not a generator. Thirty years of declining to say so out loud, because the language for it did not yet exist in the literature I had been trained on.

Anima is the first book that let me try. Numen is the book where the trying became a story. Limen is the field guide — the actual research and reference list under the fiction, for readers who finished the novels and wanted to see where the architecture came from. Fragile Light is something else, a stand-alone novel that arrived between drafts of Numen and refused to wait.

By day I am still a hospitalist. The novels are written between shifts, in the early mornings and on the days off, on a laptop that has been to three hospitals and one mountain cabin.

I read widely. I am especially indebted to the Spanish mystics, the cymatic researchers, the consciousness philosophers, and the line of hospitalists and family physicians who have spent careers refusing to pretend that the visit was over when the chart said it was.

If something in the books spoke to you, I'd like to hear about it. The address below is the right place.

On the clinical essays

Two essays on this site — Death and Dying and A Clinical Life — are different in kind from the framework essays around them. They are introspective, cathartic, and very real to me. They are the closest I have come to saying honestly, in the first person, what thirty years in medicine have taught me about presence at the bedside, about the formation of a physician, and about the patients who opened the door to the questions the rest of this site is built around. They belong with the framework essays as witness rather than as argument — the life that came, slowly, to take the model seriously.

A note on method

The site mixes established science with frameworks the mainstream still treats as speculative — the receiver model, the field, the lineage from Wheeler through Faggin and D'Ariano. Where the material is non-physical or contested, I try to present it inside a logical, scientific-thinking framework and to flag the difference from the consensus explicitly. The reader is owed both the careful case for the position and a clear view of where it parts company with the standard account. No output, on a question that matters, is better than confident-sounding output that papers over the seam.

Contact

Email: contact@josegudemd.com